Finding Inspiration – Determine color, style, and elements for your next artistic project
In preparation for the last phase of my winter passion project, a photo shoot was planned at the Camden Opera House in Maine. I’d been there many times for dance recitals and shows and was anxious to see what would result from the shoot. We planned for three hours. Corie and Annie were on board for a 50’s style movie star shoot, the theme was simply ‘Drama,’ the women could interpret it however they wish.
I really don’t know why I wanted to do this shoot. Maybe it was because I had become obsessed with 50’s style portraiture, or maybe just because my friend Kim has a fabulous collection of vintage hats, or maybe I just thought it would be cool. Whatever the reason, a little playacting was the plan and the girls came prepared with a huge wardrobe to work with.
I knew the lighting would be a challenge. My studio lighting would be lacking for the space and the opera house would only have house lights and stage lights, neither of which would suit the style I had in mind. To add to that, the entire auditorium is cream, gold, and red; strong and reflective colors. But I was not deterred, as I knew the architecture would be awesome and the space inspiring.
Behind the scenes – unedited shots.
The shoot went fabulously but it was a while before I could earnestly sit down and work with the images. Well, to be honest, there was major procrastination happening. I couldn’t seem to get started as is often the case when I am really not sure of my direction. I had a rough sketch in mind, but when I finally began, I was struggling. The images felt forced and constrained.
I showed the work I had done so far to my husband (who is also my creative cheerleader). He said the work was stodgy. Stodgy!! Me stodgy!!! He explained that it didn’t have that edge, that surreal quality that he personally loves.
With that, I realized that I was not putting my whole self into the work. I set out to make a better plan. I did extensive research to determine which direction I wanted to take. The colors, the style, the elements needed to change. I created three mood boards and found several different artists that completely inspired me. The mood boards were created in Canva with images collection by taking a cropped screenshot from the images I collected in Pinterest: the Camden Opera House board and the Abstract Art board. (Command/Shift/4 on a mac for a selective screen shot)
To execute my vision, new textures and overlays needed to be created.
Inspired by the work of Vilde Rolfsen, I layered crumbled pieces of tulle and parchment paper in front of the window and photographed them. I did the same with wax paper. It just snowed so the trees beyond were covered in white which made for a perfect backdrop.
Next, further inspired by the work of Beth Nichols, I tried my hand at poured paint textures. Sure was fun! I simply poured the paint on a board and encouraged it to run in the direction I wanted. With some, I layered another board on top and moved it around before lifting it.
I edited the images from the Opera House with a warm black and white edit in order to have a neutral palette to work with.
I am excited to show you the results, a composite of all three elements, coming in the next blog post. For a sneak peek, head over to Instagram.
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You can’t beat Canva for creating beautiful graphics for just about any purpose. I use it almost every day. I have opted in to the monthly Canva for Work plan because it keeps my branding colors handy and instantly resizes graphics for all social media platforms. Upload your own images or grab one of theirs. They even have a Canva design school with free access. I used to struggle like crazy making graphics in Photoshop, now it’s a breeze.
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Scheduling app for Pinterest. It took me a while to get on board with Tailwind. Honestly, I didn’t want to add another monthly fee to my list of expenses. But I just kept hearing so much about it so I gave it a go. I am hugely impressed! They have awesome tutorials that are easy to follow. In two hours I ran through all the tutorials and set up over 100 Pinterest pins that are scheduled out over a couple of weeks. Pinterest is not a social media site but a huge search engine and fabulous for getting traffic to your website. A great tool for getting your work out there in the world.
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And on the subject of online classes, if you are going to create classes with screen share videos or slide presentations, I highly recommend Screenflow. I was completely frustrated with the entire process until I purchased this software. Made for Mac, it will help you create beautifully presented videos with great sound.
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Much has been written about fear and creativity, how to recognize it, how to confront it, how to overcome it. I have spent the last 2 years reading every book on creativity I can get my hands on in an effort to understand how we humans go about creating art. It has been a fascinating study, one that has shaped the way I approach art-making.
But little has been said about the actual process of bringing concept to reality, creative process. Exactly how to maintain strength, determination, and the sheer will necessary to see it through to the end.
Most of us do get started it seems. Unfinished projects are a testimony to our desire to make and create. Often times, though, our projects never come to completion. Why is that the case? Do we get bored, do we give up, do we lose our way.
All of these things happen I am sure, not to mention the will to survive kicks in often enough and the desire to create takes 2nd, 3rd, or 4th place to providing for our family, caring for our loved ones, or just needing rest from the other two.
Somewhere along the line, I decided that being creative was also a matter of survival and I to give it the attention it was begging for. The desire to make meaningful, emotive, art became an integral part of me, of who I am. Life and art became inseparable.
That does not, however, mean that art-making became a comfortable process, nor is it now. But I became comfortable with not feeling comfortable if you catch my drift. Perhaps it is better said by David Bayles and Ted Orland in ‘Art and Fear.’
“Art is like beginning a sentence before you know its ending. The risks are obvious: you may never get to the end of the sentence at all – or having gotten there, you may not have said anything. This is probably not a good idea in public speaking, but it’s an excellent idea in making art. Uncertainty is the essential, inevitable and all-pervasive companion to your desire to make art. And tolerance for uncertainty is the prerequisite to succeeding.”
There it is, the answer to why we stop … uncertainty. These all-encompassing questions roll around in our heads until we come to a complete stop – “Isn’t this a waste of time? Will I ever manage to finish it? Will I ever get paid for my creativity? Shouldn’t I be making money instead?” I say blow right past all that and make art anyway. You will thank me later. Because art making has its own rewards apart from income and recognition. Creative process is progress, any way you go about it.
But the question still remains, how does one get from concept to reality? Are there secrets to learning creative process? Are they only available for the super talented? NO! It is a matter of logical planning. We must step out of our creative brains and think methodically. We must employ life skills to the making of art. What do I mean by that?
Brainstorm – For most of us this is not a problem. We have literally hundreds of ideas that arrive via inspiration. Pick the one that speaks the loudest and shows up numerous times in different ways. This could be anything from the type of painting you want to paint to a full blow photographic series. Settle in with it. Imagine it as a finished product. Do you love it? Then take it to the next level.
Get Real – What would it take to bring your concept to completion? Do you have the funds, the space, the tools. If you don’t have these yet, is there a way to get them. Just because they are not readily available does not make it impossible. Make a plan, be proactive, get what you need. For example, I know of a young man named Justin Kinney who loves to paint in oils but did not have studio space. He got involved in a local art community center and taught classes. The owners became aware of his need and offered him the use of their space while no classes were being held. He then partnered with a local chef to host pop-up gallery/ dinner shows. Isn’t that awesome? I must also mention here, that time should not be considered an issue. Once passion for your project takes over, you will find the time.
Plan Detailed Action Steps – Make a list of the things you need to do to accomplish your goal. Start with the big picture then break it down into detailed steps. Give that action plan due dates and a daily schedule. Give yourself steps that you can execute in 15 mins and some that take several hours. Allow flexibility. (I love using Trello for this. It allows me to move my due dates or change my daily schedule but still keeps me accountable. Paper planning and journaling are fine but in the end, you must be able to find your list!)
Execute – Get to work! With a plan that has things you can work on that take just a few minutes, you can work on your project daily. And you will never come to the work table and think “What was I supposed to do?” Even if you don’t feel energetic or particularly creative you will always have a little something on your list to keep you moving forward.
Allow for Uncertainty – Again I say, be flexible. Inspiration has a way of building upon itself. If you start out wanting to paint like Rembrandt and it’s looking more like Van Gogh, try running with it. Does it make you happy? Are you excited? It’s hard to be either of those things if your vision is too strictly constrained. Sara Tasker recently said, “… you can’t get anywhere by doing what everyone else is doing. Somewhere, at some point in the process, the people who have truly made it have done so by carving their own path, finding their own unique style and taking creative risks that they weren’t sure were going to turn out alright.”
This is where the turning point will be. If you allow for that uncertainty to find it’s own voice, amazing things will happen. Again I quote Bayles and Orland, ‘… you need to give yourself room to respond authentically, both to you and your subject matter and to your materials. Art happens between you and something – a subject, an idea, a technique – and both you and that something needs to be free to move.”
Leave a Thread – You are hard at work, you are close to completion, and before you can finish your heart is already off on another artistic adventure. And that’s as it should be! One passion feeds another and another until you can look back at a full body of work that has cohesion and purpose. That is not to say you should abandon your first project. Work at it to satisfaction, produce something tangible. Then move on. Resist the desire to leave it before you can see the reward for your hard work. Then you can confidently move forward instead of away.
Celebrate – Rejoice! You have worked hard and accomplished much! This is a crucial last step that is often forgotten. Give yourself permission to love what you have done, to smile, to share it with others. Don’t give in to the ‘it’s never good enough’ mentality. Take pride and have joy in your accomplishment!
I sit by the window, sun streaming in, brighter than before
I sit by the window, coffee in hand, begging it to protect me from chill winds finding it’s way through a crack in the door
I sit by the window, give way to dreaming, trying to cope
I crack open the window … earth awakens … at last there is hope!
Living in New England we are governed by the seasons. With each change comes a wrangling and a writhing unknown to those in more temperate climes. In the warm and bright days of summer, our mood is joyful, we raise our glass and celebrate its glory, revel in its bounty. As winter approaches we easily turn our attention to thoughts of calm relaxing days filled with hot chocolate and stillness, content to watch the snow softly fall from the sky.
I began to realize just how much my mood was affected by the seasons when I lived in Northern Baja. The days there were quite consistent for most of the year. From March to November one could pretty much count on the same thing every day. No need for the weather man. No need to look and judge his prediction. After 5o years or more of wild, unpredictable extremes in the Northeast it was a welcome respite.
Still life photography enlightened me even more. I’ve studied the light coming in my kitchen window throughout the seasons over the last few years. The quality of the light will change the choices I make, which items I choose, the colors I gravitate to, my camera settings. I cannot help but find my mood reflected in my work. Usually pleased with the results, the mood seems appropriate to the season.
Come March, a whole other animal is present. It is a season in itself, unlike any other. It’s wonky and weird. Sometimes hopeful with spring-like days, other times wild and unexpected, blizzards and below 0 temperatures. It’s impossible to feel calm and settled in March. And although I have made my peace with it, I am not in love it. The light is constantly changing and I feel equally as wonky and weird as the weather, fidgety, anxious, desperate for spring.
Why does something so unpleasant precede such beauty? I won’t pretend to understand it.
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I stepped out of the cold into a warm and inviting entryway. A collection of colorful works decorated the walls and surfaces of her home. Artfully placed yet organized, it told the story of a fascinating individual, well-traveled and knowledgeable, confident. We were offered a variety of coffees for our choosing and an accompaniment of delightful fruits and cheeses served on hand sculpted wooden plates.
She was an accomplished instructor, a former Hollywood director and scriptwriter who now made her home just a few minutes from mine on the coast of Maine. I was just a fledgling writer, a woman with the crazy idea that she could write a book. After sufficiently warming up to each other, the class began. Within the first five minutes, I knew this was no ordinary workshop. She boldly announced that she taught only serious writers, putting us all, specifically me, on notice.
I read a portion of my story out loud, the first time I had ever done such a thing in public. My heart pounded furiously, my throat began to close giving way to an irritating cough. Afterward, the critique was tolerable. My instructor and the other attendees were careful not to damage a budding artists ego. It was what came next that made me feel like I had just contracted some exotic disease. She leaned in, staring straight at me with an unmatched intensity. She wanted more, more than I had to give. She wanted every why, where, how … she wanted my deepest, innermost thoughts … my carefully guarded secrets. They were mine. I’d locked them away years ago and I wasn’t about to let them out! My stomach gave way to an odd, queasy feeling, my body shook with an internal quake. To say I was second guessing this whole entire process was an understatement. I wanted to shove my spiral bound notebook into my backpack and run!
“I’d love to take that cooking class.” “You never have time to cook.”
“I want to learn to draw.” “You’re not really that talented.”
“If only I could learn to work with clay.” “I’m too old, it’s too late.”
“I should write a book!” “Are you kidding?”
And so goes the conversations we have with ourselves. As we step out into unknown territory the little voice in our head utters words of caution or tales of woe, second-guessing our actions. Fear kicks in. We suppose we could never accomplish what we set out to do.
In order to push past the fear, we must embrace the tension. So what if there’s a strange queasy feeling in the pit of our stomach or an off-balance sensation in our heads? All the better! It’s a sign we are about to break through! Embrace the anguish that is an unavoidable component of the experience of creating something important. And before you know it, much to your complete surprise, you begin to crave the chaos and complexity that comes with a jolt forward. The intensity can be overwhelming … but just for a moment. The feeling quickly changes from fear to joy!
“If you fall in love with the imagination, you understand that it is a free spirit, it will go anywhere.”
First, comes inspiration – a spark, a muse, a thought beyond reason.
Next, comes awakening – a moment of beauty or insight that pushes one to action, an awareness of new possibilities, the clarity to see our vision at its completion.
Then, we fall in love – with the idea of actualization, with the dream of bringing that to vision to reality.
“Highly motivated creative people fall in love with an image of themselves as a person who will do whatever it takes to achieve their dreams – and this identification becomes, in a way, a self-fulfilling prophecy.” *
We often view the creative work of others at a gallery or a museum or on Instagram and remark, “I wish I were that talented!”
In fact, you truly are.
Think about it. Can you remember a time when you were so involved in something that the world around you all but disappeared, the cares of the day evaporated and all that remained was you, your mind and body on automatic, engrossed in your activity? It could have been a sport, cooking, hiking, even decorating. What was different about that moment?
Many who write about creative process call it flow. What happens neurologically is that we become of two minds, both our conscious and nonconscious minds are operating at once. We are aware of our surroundings but are not distracted by it. The nonconscious mind, or how we behave when we actively engage in spontaneous thinking, using intuition, emotion, and skill, is taking charge. If allowed to continue for an extended period of time, this state of being can be euphoric, taking us to places in our imagination we never thought possible.
Can we create an environment for that creative flow to happen? Yes! I have done it many times!! It is a wonderful process for shooting creative photography.
Below I have prepared for you a recipe for creative flow. For this recipe, I used my own creative photography process but it can apply to any creative activity you desire to be engaged in. It’s not difficult really, but there a few key ingredients.
Recipe for Creative Flow
- Set aside a block of time, preferably 2-4 hours, less is not enough, more is too much, preferably the time of day you are at your best. You must be alone in your space.
- Turn off and shut out all distracting buttons, beeps, and notifications.
- Collect together your materials. Using your inspiration, bring together what you will need to realize your vision. For the shoot below, I gathered orchids (my inspiration), a collection of similar fabrics (in this case, light weight linens), my prop door and backdrop boards, and camera with both my 500mm and 35mm F1.8 lenses. I also gathered lifts made of wood to put under the cloth and raise the orchids to various heights. I did not use a tripod as it hinders spontaneity and rapid movement.
- Add stimulants. Possible stimulants could include green, white or hibiscus tea, a latte, a green smoothie, anything to drink that gives you a boost and is outside your normal routine.
- Add music. Plug in the earbuds. Having your music of choice pumping directly into your brain aids in nonconscious thinking. I personally prefer something energizing and driving. I want my mojo revved.
- Begin. Don’t think too hard about it, just start and then continue and continue some more. Take shots straight on, looking up, looking down, close up and far away. Move the props a hair, turn them this way or that. Change the backdrop, the lighting, add something, then take something away. Work up a sweat – fling open the windows. Work until you are exhausted.
- Reflect. Remember how good it felt to be unplugged and unhinged, to let your imagination fly! Do not focus on results, focus on the joy of the process. If you do, you will desire to experience that free-spirited creative flow again and again.
No doubt you will find you’ve created something you love, or at the very least, you had an aha moment or discovered a new technique. Do this every week for 6 months or even 3 months and you will be amazed at what you are able to accomplish. It really is about the process, but after all, in the end, we want something to show for our concentrated efforts and believe me, you will!
*Quotes from the book ‘Wired to Create,’ by Scott Barry Kaufman and Carolyn Gregoire which am still reading and totally love.
It’s only when we live without, we realize we have so much.
I’m sure there are a few Pinterest quotes out there on the subject. So true, isn’t it? Whether it be gourmet foods, designer clothing, photography props, or any number of first world desires, living without has a way of making us better. Many artists past and present believe that restricting oneself to a limited palette or few materialsA. Even so, we often find ourselves lamenting what we do not have with a sullen, childlike pout, giving way to a whine.
I actually felt kind of silly when I caught myself whining about not having fresh flowers to photograph. “Really Karen, you are going to whine about that!” After all, I wasn’t surviving on 3 for a dollar packs of English muffins or losing my apartment and having to move in with my in-laws. Flowers are desired yes, essential no. It is winter and we live in the out in the sticks.
Ingenuity kicked in at the grocery store in the produce section. Displayed in a very mundane way was a selection of fruits from far away lands, some as far away as Florida, others Mexico, still others Chile. I excitedly gathered up whatever caught my eye, staying within a particular color palette.
The resulting photo shoot amazed me. I was able to put together a collection that rivaled a summer harvest. Citrus, nuts (including coconut) and dried grasses, that’s all it took to create stills with the feel of an abundant gathering. Again, it was a reminder that I really do have so much, even when I think I don’t. After all, I have access to fruits from half a world away!
I have lived with little in my lifetime, some years I had much. Looking back, it was the years with little that I did my best work. In his book, The Courage to Create (one of my all time favorite creativity books), Rolly May describes it this way, under the heading ‘Form as a limitation in creativity;’
“… it is an aid to finding new meaning, a stimulus to condensing your meaning, to simplifying and purifying it, and to discovering on a more universal dimension the essence you wish to express.”
Simply put, limitation in creative work helps us zero in on our goal.
I believe it is generally true in life as well. The less we have the more we know what we really need.
In case you haven’t had a chance to see it yet, the documentary ‘Minimalism‘ is now trending on Netflix. A must see.
I’ve never been much of a planner. For most of my life, I preferred letting the days, months, and years unfold as they would, believing that planning took the spontaneity out of life, leaving no room for unexpected opportunities. My husband, on the other hand, is the exact opposite. It makes for a good balance. We celebrate 45 years of marriage January 1st. Strange day to marry isn’t it? But how we happened to marry on New Years Day is a story for another time.
It wasn’t until 2 years ago that I discovered the power of setting intentions. I took an online class from Christina Greve, photographer, and life coach who’s work I fell in love with. She teaches the idea of turning dreams into reality by imaging your dream life and then setting out to accomplish it. Her focus not only included what you might want for your business but also what you desired for yourself personally, emotionally and creatively. I have to admit, the concept was completely foreign to me. I always felt you got the hand you were dealt in life. You just had to make the best of it.
From then on, I set monthly goals for myself designed to reach a larger more specific goal by then end of the year. I quickly realized results and made it a continued practice. I still found plenty of room to grab hold of opportunity when it presented itself, even more so, I think.
Last year turned out to be so much more than I ever could have dreamed. I am so happy to look back over my images and remember with fondness photo shoots, delightful summer days, and personal connections. I’ve met some amazingly creative people. Kim Klassen’s Finding Stillness was the highlight of my year, no doubt the highlight of my entire creative life. I connected with wonderful individuals who have helped me realize and solidify the direction I want my work to take.
Setting intentions for this year was easy. Connect with as many creative individuals as possible either by attending more workshops or designing my own. As I was imaging my dream life for 2017, another inspiring individual popped in and offered to craft a workshop for me abroad. Sharon from Arts and Cultural Travel focuses on experiential travel through cultural explorations, the arts, culinary samplings, and wellness workshops. I am so thrilled to be partnering with Sharon on a still life photography workshop in Tuscany!
And here’s a cool little video as a teaser.
I also was able to arrange another ‘It’s a Still Life’ photography workshop here in Maine this summer. The details are
To celebrate, I am doing a little giveaway over on Instagram here.
As we each take a few moments to reflect on the people and events that have impacted our lives, lessons learned and insight gained, my hope is that we can look to the next year with intention, and realize all that is in our heart to do.
I took off, out into the cold chill wind of Maine in November, the rain hitting my face like pellets, reminding me that soon it will be snow. The two blocks from work to Rock City Cafe felt like two miles. Why brave the elements you ask? Coffee…and solitude.
I purposely desired work that would put me in touch with my community, specifically the arts community, here in my little town of Rockland. Why would an introvert purposely want to interact with the public? Necessity. I felt the need to learn the art of communication. There is so much I want to share with others and I needed the skill to do so. But after a couple of hours of hob knobbing, and smiling, and trying to say just the right things, I needed some space.
I sat at the bar while I waited for my latte. There is a comfortable familiarity to this space. The 20′ ceilings of the century-old brick building muffle the noise of numerous conversations. Tap, tap, tap of metal on metal, swoosh, swoosh, of the milk foamer…sounds that immediately calm my slightly agitated soul. This is a dedicated space for me. It is not like a vista or serene lakeside scene where one can feel a sense of true self, a single entity in the vastness of creation. It is, however, a place to reflect…and connect with humanity, without really having to actually connect.
As I sip my perfectly blended concoction of espresso, tightly foamed milk, and way too much sugar, everything seems right with the world. Ahh…another sip, perfectly warmed, perfectly warming. Coffee is a blessing. It’s right up there with wine making the heart rejoice. It makes everything work when we feel it can’t or won’t or it’s just too dang hard.
On this day, on a break in the workday, I mistakenly left my phone behind. That too was a blessing. I was left with my own thoughts and my own words, the jittery scribblings of an overly caffeinated introvert.
“Artists are people driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to shrink and hide.”
~ Donald Winnicott