Last week I was working like crazy, anxious to finish so I could take time to do a photo shoot. I was excited to get started on the latest prompt for Kim Klassen’s Studio Online. The ‘tables’ prompt was just what I needed to mix things up a bit. A different perspective, a whole new still life mindset, and I have some great antique tables to shoot.
And then life happened… In an instant I was down to Connecticut, sitting in the hospital next to 90 year old Mom in critical condition. I thought I was prepared for this inevitability, but uh… no… I was not!!
A flood of emotions cursed through my body sending me reeling. I had to somehow deal with these emotions or I would be on the floor in a heap of pain in short order.
Only a month ago I was sitting across the table from my closest friend, helping her deal with the sudden loss of a relative. My subsequent post “Sorrows are less with bread” was the best advise I could come up with. How strange that I was now looking at the outline of the face of death myself.
Tossing and turning unable to sleep I popped up out of bed at 5;30am and got ready to greet the sunrise. Time to test the photo therapy theory. Camera in hand I clicked and clicked as the sun highlighted the intricate beauty of living things still showing color in mom’s backyard. My heart began to slow, head began to clear… just a bit. Fresh air filled my lungs replacing my shallow breaths.
I decide the bird bath outside was a reasonable substitute for a table and “styled” it with a couple of branches I can’t now remember the name of. I was amazed at the results. The bird bath is a plastic relic that has been caring for the birds for decades.
Well, it definitely worked. Photo therapy is a real thing.
I am convinced that the best way to deal with death, difficulties, trauma is to celebrate life, the best way you know how. And if you can come together as a family to do so, all the better.
Mom is recovering and the adrenaline level in my body is decreasing …for now.
Oh my, that was close…